Friday, October 29, 2010

Things That I Know

So the last day and a half I have been really upset because of some complications with our adoption agency's relationship with China--complications that will probably be resolved quickly and with little impact to our adoption.  Since I have started this blog, I have had days where I was sad but it has always been for others, for their complications and their pain, but today it has been about me (at least to me).  In some ways this is much easier, because I KNOW what comforts me and often I don't have words to comfort others.

So this is what I know:

Terrific steak dinner with family and friend, comforting.
Big Bang Theory, laughter producing.
Crushing my husband and friend in a game of Settlers, surprisingly satisfying.
Spending time with husband, soothing.
Talking to Social Worker for an hour, reassuring.
Knowing friends on WAGI are praying, heart easing.
Talking to best friend on phone, relaxing.
Spending time with God, necessary and sweet.
Remembering I serve a God of power, encouraging.
Giggles and kisses with my daughter, wonderful.
Daughter napping so I can update blog, really, really nice. 

My head is still stuffy from all the tears (some of which I think have to be about other griefs because I almost never cry for me) but I know this is just a small blip in the grand scheme of things and I know I will come out on the other side of this closer to God.

O soul, are you weary and troubled?
No light in the darkness you see?
There’s a light for a look at the Savior,
And life more abundant and free!

Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

Through death into life everlasting
He passed, and we follow Him there;
Over us sin no more hath dominion—
For more than conquerors we are!

His Word shall not fail you—He promised;
Believe Him, and all will be well:
Then go to a world that is dying,
His perfect salvation to tell!

Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.


Anonymous said...

I'll /let/ you crush me again at board games some time :-)

No Greater Love said...

sobbing...totally sobbing.

could keep it under control until reading this post. I'm going to print it off, so I can read that "turn your eyes upon Jesus..." all the time.

I feel so yucky..and it doesn't help I am TOTALLY hormonal.

Oh, Nora...we got an e-mail from our agency today saying..."Oh my...I am so sorry....I never got your paperwork, so I didn't realize you were officially with our agency."

So...I guess that explains why we never get our e-mails answered.

Is that the craziest thing you have ever heard?

They accepted our application....approved our homestudy....but the head of the India department somehow didn't understand we were official.

We are having such a difficult time with getting matched....why do we have to be having such a difficult time with our agency too.

Ahhhhh.... there is my complainy e-mail....but in a post...that hopefully no one will read but you, since it is so far back. right?