|May 7th, 2012|
|May 7th, 2012|
|June 12, 2012|
|July 26, 2012|
|August 20, 2012|
But September was a little rough with the boys back in school, Daddy at work full time, and home alone with Mommy and Sunflower. Teething probably also contributed to the sleepless nights and nighttime screaming fits. So Sunflower started preschool which gave our days back a little more routine and Sweet Pea Mommy and me time.
|October 2, 2012|
|November 7, 2012|
|December 13, 2012|
|January 25, 2013|
|February 4, 2013|
There will be many points in her life as she grows older where her losses will need to be grieved, where her mind will comprehend a little more of what adoption means. Points where she tells us the gain of one thing (us) can not take away the pain of what she has lost (culture, language, first family). There will probably be a point where she wonders about her Nanny and her first family and we won't have the answers. Today she does not have those worries, but today she is one step further away from the answers she did have.
|May 10, 2012|
I know that in China she learned to love animals. She points out every dog and cat with glee (I never worry about her eyesight because sometimes those animals are very, very hard for me to see). Even from the start she would whip her head around at the sound of a dog and smile large.
She came to us with the ability to make motorcycle/electric scooter noises. I wasn't sure it meant she'd been on one, but over time I have become positive. The pictures show she visited the SWI with her Nanny on a scooter (probably riding on the back of her Nanny in a baby carrier) and she absolutely loves wind on her face.
|November 5, 2012|
And I can spend a few hours grieving what she is not yet capable of grieving, because I am her mom. I will have years of that laugh and giggle and run attack hug. We will do everything we can to give her the best of us and make a great life for her because she has already given us the best of her by trusting us.
* I also believe the 9 months and few days she spent being formed in her mother's tummy are significant but happy 33.333/33.333/33.333 day just doesn't have the same ring to it.